beautiful.

the most remarkable thing about coming home to you is the feeling of being in motion again: it's the most extraordinary thing in the world.

i have two big hands and a heart pumping blood and a 1967 colt .45 with the busted safety catch.

the world shines as i cross the macon county line going to georgia.

the most remarkable thing about you standing in the doorway is that it's you and that you are standing in the doorway and you smile as you ease the gun from my hand, i am frozen with joy right where i stand.

the world throws its light underneath your hair, forty miles from atlanta, this is nowhere, going to georgia.

the world shines as i cross the macon county line going to georgia.
-"going to georgia," the mountain goats

this is without a doubt the most beautiful song i've ever heard. this was the first song i heard by one of my now favorite bands. palmer ray, i have you to thank for that. everything about this song has the power to move me, no matter what mood i'm in. especially john darnielle's vocals. holy jeez.

anyway, my intentional point for this was i'm on the mountain goats pandora radio station and this song came on. it's been a while since i listened to it, so i decided to stop what i was doing (stumbling and facebook chatting) and pay attention to the song. when it came to the line:

the most remarkable thing about you standing in the doorway is that it's you and that you are standing in the doorway and you smile as you ease the gun from my hand, i am frozen with joy right where i stand.

i was stunned. for the first time when i heard this line and pictured it, putting myself in the song (something i do frequently, not just with songs, but with books, poems, movies, etc.) i wasn't the one holding the gun. i was easing it from someone's hand. a particular someone, but i won't say who.

i no longer feel like i'm unwanted in this person's life. and, no, not just because of some random vision i had. but because at the exact moment i had this random vision, i was talking to this person on facebook chat. HE chatted ME. HE opened up to ME. granted, he closed right back up after saying what he did, but the point is he opened up. step: forward.

i like being the easer, not the holder, of the gun.