tired.

i'm tired of not knowing what i want.
i'm tired of the ups and downs i go through on a daily basis.
i'm tired of feeling alone.
i'm tired of seeing everyone around me happily in relationships.
i'm tired of feeling one way when it would be better for me to feel another.
i'm tired of thinking about death.
i'm tired of letting kisses fool me.
i'm tired of hooking up with guys and them not being able to look me in the eye later.
i'm tired of hearing 'don't get your hopes up again.'
i'm tired of feeling like the third wheel.
i'm tired of having to have alcohol to be able to say what i want to.
i'm tired of south carolina.
i'm tired of leading a monotonous life.
i'm tired of being broken.
i'm tired of not being able to be fixed.


i need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me,
i let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, i feel free now.
but the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now...
cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life