commitment.

commitment scares me. and i'm not just talking relationships, although those do terrify me as well. i have to declare a major by the end of this semester and i am scared to death of that. having to make this decision of what i want to do is a huge commitment. that's my future. i don't know if it's all about the determination of right and wrong. maybe i am scared to be wrong about myself. maybe what i'm really scared of is being wrong about a huge part of my life. perhaps the concept of wasting time is a big factor in it as well. if i change my mind after making a commitment, then did i not waste all that time i just spent on a different goal? and, like i said, if i was wrong about this huge aspect of my life, then has the time i've spent here on earth been a waste? what have i been doing that is so distracting i can't even begin fathom what would make me happy?