control.

i feel like my academic life is spiraling out of control.

i've had to drop two classes, bringing me down to 12 hours and i'm failing another class. in the class i'm failing, the professor has told me that she doesn't think i'll be able to pass, but i should come meet with her anyway. at this rate, i'll only carry over 9 hours to next semester, which will not help with the whole "graduating on time" thing.

uhhh.

last week i was seriously contemplating whether or not i even want to be in college. i guess i still am, now. i feel like the only reason i'm here is just to get a degree and then move on with my life. the problem is, i'm getting a degree and have no idea what i'm going to do with the rest of my life, so what's the point of the degree?

maybe if i could find something i was passionate about and focus on that things wouldn't look so bleak. i just can't figure out what that thing could possibly be.