funk.

i'm in a funk.

maybe it's the lack of sleep. maybe it's because i just realized how far behind i am on pretty much all my schoolwork. which, i know will lead to less sleep. maybe it's because i just dropped a class (well, i need one more signature for it to be official) and now know i'll have to take 18 hours next semester. i dropped a class at the beginning of this semester because that was how many i had and i couldn't handle all the work. i guess i'll just have to suck it up next semester and deal.

maybe it's just because i feel a little dehydrated. who knows?

smart water tastes no different than regular water to me. other than it feels like it's clinging to the back of my throat. but, that could just be because my throat's feeling a little sore. i gotta be more careful when i'm blaring/singing along with the music in my car on the way back to school.

hm.

i've also been contemplating a lot lately if the whole college thing's for me. the only problem is, i have no idea what i'd do if i dropped out. working at the restaurant, i hardly made the money it would require to support myself, which my father told me i'd have to do if i dropped out. what sucks is i really think that's the only thing keeping me from dropping out: not having anything to do once i do. that, and feeling like i've wasted a ton of my parent's money. but what doesn't make any sense is that i still have no idea what i'm going to do AFTER college. so i'll be in the same boat, just with an english degree.

grr. i need to quit worrying about such things right now.