routine.

i don't feel as out of control anymore. i think it's because i'm finally getting back into a steady routine, as opposed to the wacky out-there schedule my life has been for the past couple of weeks. i dropped spanish. i'm ok with taking 18 hours next semester. i've got a schedule planned out i'm positive i can make myself follow. in the meantime, i've started going back to classes regularly and have been doing the homework for them outside of class. and not right before class, either. i actually take time and prepare for them. crazy, isn't it?

but, i am still very ready for next semester. monica's coming back and i'll be living with her again. i didn't realize how right for me that was until this semester when she was gone. with any luck, we'll be in the same dorm as taylor. and, as weird as this is going to sound, i think it'll make it easier to not spend the night with him as much. this way, even if it is like 3AM when i'm ready to go to sleep, i'll just go right down the hall/up the stairs to my room, instead of having to walk across campus (the main reason i've been spending most nights with him). it's not that i don't like spending the night with him. believe me, i've learned that i like sleeping with someone else wayyy better than sleeping alone, but i think it would be better for me to concentrate on school (and refrain from becoming clingy) if i slept in my own bed the majority of the week.

well, there's only a month and a half left in this semester (including thanksgiving break, study day, and exams), so hopefully those days will fly by like the rest of this semester already has. i've been thinking a lot about how much fun christmas break is going to be. i'm going to make more out of it than i did last year. i'm really glad taylor doesn't live that far away, too. fall break was bad enough and that was just going 3 days without seeing him. it's weird how so "not my type" taylor is. but, then again, i've never had a boyfriend before so i don't know if i even have a type. regardless, the guys i usually fall for have the same things in common...but taylor's different from all of them, in a lot of different ways. and i feel this is a good thing. my friend says he thinks i can do better, and maybe that's true. but i don't want to. right now i only want to be with taylor. and i can honestly say that i have never felt like that about someone before.

huh. this is turning out to be a better week than i thought it would.