silence.

i don't know what happened. all of a sudden, i feel nothing. it's kind of liberating in a way, but it scares me at the same time. i don't know what i want anymore, and nothing makes sense at all. it's like i'm floating in a calm sea, surrounded by nothing but water, and off in the distance i see a small island. nothing is compelling me to swim forward toward that island anymore, but nothing's holding me back from doing that either. there are no storms, no sharks, and i don't grow tired of just treading water. but that's not where i want to be. as terrible as fear can be, it can also be a great motivator. i want that drive and that passion, that need to make it to my small island paradise. i don't know where to turn...it's very lonesome in my calm sea.