pathetic.

i always want what i can't have.
i know, cliche of the century. the only way to really describe how i feel, and everyone else on the planet thinks the same way.

i talked to someone a few days ago who i've wanted to talk to for the longest time. i sent the conversation to my best friend so she could help me decipher what it meant. the real reason i sent it? because i'd have an excuse to save the conversation so i could go back and re-read it whenever i wanted to.

a lot of the time i feel like amos from "chicago." the song "mr. cellophane" is my theme song most of the time. i think it's sad that some people fade from view because they want to. they blend in because they don't want to stand out or because they're too lazy to be different. people who are naturally wallflowers, though, like i am, can't understand why anyone would choose this lifestyle. those who do rock the spotlight can't understand how hard it is to break free from the wall. i also don't think they realize how lonely a spot on that wall is.