okay, I can't do it. I love this blog too much.
in my poetry class today, we were discussing how someone's poem could be interpreted and our professor said she interpreted part of it as having lost someone (as in, they had died). she went on to say that she probably interpreted it that way because she was much older than us and had experienced more loss and that she really wished we hadn't experienced the same amount of loss as she has because we're too young to have experienced such a thing.
at this point, I had a mini revelation about myself, about my abandonment issues. i HAVE experienced a lot of loss. too much for someone my age, in my opinion. i've lost a teacher, friends, a teammate, family members, pets. more often than not, these people were gone wayyy before their time should have come.
maybe i have a problem with people choosing to walk out of my life because I've lost so many who didn't have a choice. maybe the reason i come off clingy is because i'm trying to keep as many people i care about around, scared to lose more people i love.
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