birthday.

i feel like i'm all warmed up for a new post; i have coffee, good music, and about 20 minutes before i have to be anywhere.

so it's exactly 61 hours and 32 minutes until my birthday! ...whoops, 31 minutes. not that i'm counting down or anything. i'm so excited. this is the first birthday in a while where i've done something that i've actually wanted to do. the past couple ones were someone else saying "hey, why don't you..." or "hey, why don't we..." and me just going along with it.

i've become a bit of a push-over, and it was that previous statement that made me realize it. what the hell have i been thinking these past couple of years, not doing what i really want to on MY birthday? isn't this day supposed to be about ME?

ok, i didn't mean for this to become so self-centered, but it's the truth. i really need to start standing up for myself more and doing what i want and saying what i think.