****** ****

****** doesn't want me anymore.
**** wants/wanted me but won't follow through with it.

i don't want to be with ****** anymore, but i do want to be with ****. so i think i need to break off whatever this friends+benefits thing is with ****** because i don't think i can keep doing it now that i've finally admitted to myself i still want to be with ****.

of course we all know i won't. i've said i was gonna cut this out too many times and not to be trustworthy in this statement.

but i have to this time.

i'll take a leaf out of casey cartwright's (from greek) book and just be by myself for a while.